So, I've realized exactly how neglected this poor site is. . .I logged in today and had 209 unread messages/unchecked deviations!

YIKES!

Well, I've looked at all the deviations, and I'll slowly but surely start reading all the old journals and messages. I'm determined to update this regularly, so be on the looke out for new deviations and replies from me!

In other news, school has started (three weeks ago) and everything seems to be slipping away so fast! I mean, I'm already a junior. Agh, it's despairing to know that my childhood is almost gone. I'm ready to embrace the world, but I still feel. . .overwhelmed. This year, I'm making it top priority to not epic fail and remain lazy.

Also, I've been feeling a lot more creative than normal lately, which I'm immensely thankful for. I'd still like to become better at drawing, but I feel my writing/photography as improved! Hopefully, I'll get around to writing something I like enough to publish since my dad is always "Finish soemthing and I'll give it to [insert name of one of my dad's publishing friend's here]".

Oh and I'm EXTREMELY excited for DTASC (ginormous Drama festival/competition my school's Drama club participates in every year). I'm hoping to enter two categories: Large group Comedy and Costume/Makeup. I've pretty much got the comedic play down, but I NEED to figure out what to do for costuming. Basically, I need to find a song (any song instrumental or not) that tells a story (the lyrics don't literally need to tell a story, so long as I can interpet it that way) and creat a costume based off of a "character" in the song. I just have so many I'd like to choose! If you have any suggesttions, it's be MUCH appreciated.

=]

Well, that's pretty much it for now.

Has been finished!! BUT I won't be posting the entire thing on here/other internet sites, just highlight points. . .my favorite parts.

*throws confetti*

To all of you unaware, "Anyone Else But You" is the title I choose for the guy-self romance-y story. I can't even begin to describe to you how happy I am about completing it, this is the first story/novel (even though it majorly sucks) that I've written until the end. Usually, I just get tired of the story and throw it away or move on. Soooo I owe a HUGE thanks to all of my friends for reading it and encouraging me to continue it!

Thank you, thank you, thank you Alycea, Sierra, Ashli, Anisah, Jazmin, Jessica, Candice, Taylor, Andrew, Christian, Debbie, Layla

And a special thank you to Jessie (she was so into the story. . .it made me happeh just watching her read it P.E.)!!

You guys inspired me. And you helped me achieve one of my New Year's Resolutions!!!! 8D

As for the sequel story I planned on writing for the guy-self stories. . .that's sort of on hold at the moment. I think I need to take a break from Venice, Sky and Nate and Chase and Reggie and Ray and Roxanne and Violet and Danii and Tony and Eric and Candy and lil Alycea have been with me (in dreams, delusions, certain songs, etc.) lately and it's driving me crazy, hahaha. But don't worry, I'll still write it (eventually).


So now, I'm going to try and go back to write waaay more over the summer.

I've got two ideas buzzing around in my head (maybe even publishing worthy?) that I've started.

One of them involves anime-ness, so I'd really appreciate it if you guys would share some of your fav animes with me . . .and maybe some un-known ones too, so I can watch them and get ideas. Oh, and if any of you have played W.O.W could you explain to me what it's like, I refuse to become addicted to that just for the sake of research! Haha.

I'm also going to try and do a planned photo shoot with a couple of my Lancrapster High friends, so be on the lookout for epic pictures.

Ummm. . .and I'm REALY excited for Warped Tour!!!

8D

Well, I've run out of things to blab about, so goodbye for now!

Wow, I haven't updated in FOREVER!

Well, I'm doing pretty good. . .focusing on finishing my wannabe novel "Anyone Else But You"<- - -the name is subject to change. I'm just gald that I've actually managed to continue it, this is the longest story I've ever written.

Yay accomplishment!

I also find myself listening to all these bands that I discovered in like 8th grade, but never really got into until now:

Gogol Bordello

Modest Mouse

Maldroid

You should check 'em out.

Hmm, oh and Cosmay is going really well! It's so much fun =]

I guess that's it for now!

Au Revoir, mes amis.

~Kiani

Hehe, random update time!

I think I'm going to start back with my amateur directing.

I've got a bucnh of film ideas bubbling around in my head. . .short films, of course, but I'm ready to get back behind my camcorder and capture the world.

So I'll probably be making a new youtube account

=]

I just watched an A M A Z I N G video

Watch

Enjoy

Well, I wasn't exactly tagged for this. . .but it seemed fun and I wanted to update.



<sub>i. This year started out extremely rough, but I'm bubbling with endless optimism. It's weird- I've never felt this happy. I can't even begin to explain it.


ii. I think I watch little kid shows- shows for pre-schoolers on Nick Jr. and Playhouse Disney- because I miss the freedom of being 3. I never felt inadequate. . .

iii. Sometimes, I think my dad doesn't want anything to do with me. My mom says it's because I remind him too much of my brother. I think it's because I remind him of her, whatever the case is. . .he's already replaced me with a new baby.

iv. I desparately wish I could see myself like other people do. Smart. Full of potential. Strong. Outgoing. Not that I want to be concieted or anything, I just want to feel confident, happy.


v. Sometimes, I hate it when people compliment me and tell me I'm pretty. I just feel like that's all they see me for. I don't want to be just "pretty".

vi. I miss being able to remember all of my dreams instead of waking up and reminiscing on darkness.


vii. I'm BEYOND jealous of my little sister.

viii. When I was five I told my mom I wanted to be a writer, but now I'm not sure what I want to do. I want to feel good at something, anything, so I can latch on to it and make a career out of it.

ix. I'm homeless. Not in the literal sense, I mean I'm not on the streets. . .but the house I live in doesn't belong to my mom. We live with eleven other people and when I'm eighteen I'll have to leave.

x. It really annoys me that my mom thinks she can be famous again. Her stupid five seconds in the spotlight has been over for about 15 years and she's still trying to claw her way back on stage.

xi. To me, black and white movies are the greatest for of films ever. They make me happy and I'm not really sure why.

xii. I hate that people call me an uke, it just reminds me of how easily controlled I am. It reminds me of the rape.

xiii. I love drama because I get to dress up and be some one else. For a few moments, I'm not Kiani or self concious. I'm O'Brien. Or a Myrmidon. Or Viola. I'm strong and loud and brilliant.

xiv. I blame my 3rd grade teacher for my obsession with vampires. She cast me as Dracula in the school play because I was tall and loaned me "The Little Vampire" to get into character. I've been watching and reading about them since.

xv. I hate arguments, but I'm incapable of admitting that I'm wrong.

xvi. Sometimes, I feel like the grown-up in the house. My mom is just too immature. I think that's why I act like a retard in school.

xvii. I want to make a difference in the world with music, like the Beatles or Janis Joplin, or The Police, or U2. But I'm too self concious about my singing and lack of real musical talent

xviii. I want to go to college because it'd be my one escape from everything here in Lancaster, but I know I can't afford it and my grades aren't good enough for a scholarship.

xix. I'm really competitive. I like to be the best at everything and I'm not. It really annoys me that I suck at most stuffs.

xx. I adore the smell of Strawberries. It reminds me of Summer and warmth and smoothies and endless skies.

xxi. I'm ashamed that my relationship with my mom epic fails. We used to talk about everything, and now I can barely discuss anything with her. It's like the words get caught in my throat or something. It hurts her and she blames herself. I feel even worse because it's my fault not hers.

xxii. I really wish I could draw or paint or something.

xxiii. I'm a grammar snub who can't spell to save her life.

xxiv. My favorite teacher in the whole wide world was Mr. Kriss. He taught Vis Comm 1 last year, and so much more. In that class, we could talk about things that actually matter. We could spend an hour discussing everthing all the other teachers would shy away from. I really miss him. . . part of the reason I still have hope of being a director is because of him. I wish he'd come back from Washington.

xxv. I obsess over books like "Alice in Wonderland" and "The Phantom Tollbooth" because I secretly want to escape to worlds like the ones depicted in there. I crawled into my closet after I read "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" in the hopes that when I opened my eyes I'd be staring at Narnia.

xxvi. The person I look up to the most is my grandma. She's strong and wise and silly and just amazing in every way. The first time in all my life I'd actually seen her cry was when Obama got elected- she'd grown up during the civil rights and had never thought a Black President would be possible. She wants me achieve greatness because of all the wonderful possibilities out in the world for me. I want to reach the stars for her, but I'm afraid I'm not tall enough.</sub>



So yea, that's pretty much it for now =]

I'm going to try and finish making this magical belt out of playing cards I bought at the Dollar Tree store XD

And vote for the Kid's Choice Awards!!

Au Revoir~